In a revealing interview with ESPN’s Rachel Nichols, LeBron James reveals that he acting very “King” like — but that’s all going to change this season. He honestly examines how being cast as the villain changed him for the worst, and that he really wasn’t “that guy.”

From talking about his father’s absence to his mother’s erratic presence, James is open about the experiences in his life that affected him the most profoundly. Two of the highlights that illuminate how James wants to be viewed this season are below.

He regrets “The Decision”:

“If I could look back on it I would probably change a lot of it. The fact of having a whole TV special, and people getting the opportunity to watch me make a decision on where I wanted to play, I probably would change that. Because I can now look and see if the shoe was on the other foot and I was a fan, and I was very passionate about one player, and he decided to leave, I would be upset too about the way he handled it.”

On playing the villain role:

“It basically turned me into somebody I wasn’t. When you start to hear ‘the villain,’ now you have to be the villain. And I started to buy into it. I started to play the game of basketball at a level or in a mind state that I had never played at before. I mean angry. That’s mentally, and that’s not the way I play the game of basketball.”